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11:38pm: i hope you drown in your crocodile tears, within arms' reach of the two who would give their lives to save the miserable, pathetic excuse for existence that is yours.

10:58am: i rather think i would like to get out and stretch my legs.

1:51am: Perhaps I will be allowed to talk and think again.

2:22pm: *laugh*
such influence even as a wisp of a spectre

1:34pm: Happy birthday my darling.
I love you always and forever.

4:55pm: Infertility is usually defined as not being able to get pregnant despite trying for one year. A broader view of infertility includes not being able to carry a pregnancy to term and have a baby.

What causes infertility in women?

Problems with ovulation account for most infertility in women. Without ovulation, eggs are not available to be fertilized. Signs of problems with ovulation include irregular menstrual periods or no periods. Simple lifestyle factors - including stress, diet, or athletic training - can affect a woman's hormonal balance. Much less often, a hormonal imbalance from a serious medical problem such as a pituitary gland tumor can cause ovulation problems. Regardless of the cause of these homonal imbalances, the end result may be infertility.

Aging is an important factor in female infertility. The ability of a woman's ovaries to produce eggs declines with age, especially after age 35. About one third of couples where the woman is over 35 will have problems with fertility. By the time she reaches menopause, when her monthly periods stop for good, a woman can no longer produce eggs or become pregnant on her own. Infertility of this sort may be treated through the use of donor eggs.

Other problems can also lead to infertility in women. If the fallopian tubes are blocked at one or both ends, the egg can't travel through the tubes into the uterus. Blocked tubes may result from pelvic inflammatory disease, endometriosis, or surgery for an ectopic pregnancy.

What is the treatment for infertility?

Depending on the test results, different treatments can be suggested. Eighty-five to 90 percent of infertility cases are treated with drugs or surgery.

Various fertility drugs may be used for women with ovulation problems. It is important to talk with your health care provider about the drug to be used. You should understand the drug's benefits and side effects. Depending on the type of fertility drug and the dosage of the drug used, multiple births (such as twins) can occur in some women.

If needed, surgery can be done to repair damage to a woman's ovaries, fallopian tubes, or uterus.

12:36pm: happy birthday darling.

12:35pm: 残酷な君に
How can you treat me so cruelly ?
I, who you wounded, wrote myself on a senario
Every night I repeat playing on stage, to show myself to you, Garance, the most cruel in this world
I go on stage, this world of chimera, to do a pantomime of this love no one knows
Every night I repeat playing on stage, wanting you to see me, Baptiste, the most stupid pierrot in this world
For the precious wound you gave me not to be healed, I want to always finger it, forever
I, the fool, found you and then, losing you I regret you to the point where I bleed
Letting you and this guy going on stage, poor of me I am the clown, the audience laughs
Each time I see you you are as beautiful as a flower in bloom
And I, the fool, am forever prisoneer of this suffering
This night again I repeat playing alone, to expose myself to her
Because you are the only one to know my great sorrow
This night again my stage cries tears of blood
Garance, for you, the one I love the most in this world

9:33am: You are a liar and I hate you. I hope both those men realize how horrible you are and find worthwhile people with which to spend their lives.

10:30am: If a woman screams in the darkness and there is no one there to hear it, does her shrill resonance make a sound?

7:24pm: LIAR.

6:48pm: kindly don't bother.

2:26pm: So.
so, you say.

so. so.

it's NOT so.

thank you VERY much for your pleasant remembrances of me. )<

11:22pm: what do you expect?

there is nothing i could have done... there simply wasn't enough to try anymore.

this is what apathy brings. i am the epitome of apathy.

all i am now to all of them is a ghost,

it is almost better than what i was to them before.

12:04pm: Still reading.
"To own the passion, I knew, would be no less disgraceful than if I gratified it. Besides, I realized full well that I was the object of universal detestation, a Woman."

Euripides, Hippolytus.

1:55am: I can't feel.





Anything.



Nor do I feel like I can see, or hear, or smell, or taste.




When do we leave?

... I forget.

12:03am: A little something about the real world
Everything is fake.

I'm fake, you're fake. We're all fake here.

No, perhaps that's harsh. Truthfully, there is very little that is true and honest and real in this 'real world.' If anyone can find a piece of that reality and hang onto it, they should consider themselves very, very lucky.

( Private, and very, very angry )

4:23am: